PLAGUE ;;
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 0:36:55 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
fear sparked inside of me when she asked if i had any siblings. she's going to find out. she's going to find out. she's going to find out. i calmed myself, masking the agony behind my eyes as i spoke, "i don't know. i think so, i probably have...but...they're most likely all dead now." the lyrics came out throaty and raw, emotion flooding my vocals despite my best efforts to hide my secret pains. zeelias didn't need to know about my history, it would only conjure pity and disgust, and nothing good could come of it.
moments passed, then minutes, and suddenly i knew. ruaiin was a flight risk the moment she woke up-- she had taken off. "she's gone." i murmured, optics opened wide in surprise, words filled with worry now. what had i done?
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 0:56:12 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^ I was confused by the emotion. What was going on? Why did he sound so upset. My mind was reeling. What had his past been like. I wanted to ask so bad, but it seemed to hurt him to think about it. I like Executioner, and wanted to keep him around more than anything. I enjoyed his company, and wondered why he seemed so afraid right now. He sounded sad, and in pain. "What's wrong, Executioner?" My vocals were soft and worried. I wanted to make him better.
^^ As time passed, he suddenly spoke. I hadn't realized it, but he had. He was smart. He was handsome, and perfect. I shook my head to clear of these thoughts. Right now, Ray was gone, and it was my fault. What was I going to do? I remained speechless with worry.[/size][/center]
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PLAGUE ;;
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i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 1:12:54 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
my heart just about melted at the worried look on zeelias's features as she detected the sorrow coursing beneath my skin. such strong emotion, and all for a brute like me? "it is nothing for you to worry about, zeelias. just things that bother me to this day." i sighed, smiling sweetly at her worried looks.
now was not the time to be talking about my past, not when ruaiin was mia so suddenly. what had i done, by introducing myself to these two? "i bet she just ventured a little farther into the terra than we had first though." i mused, hoping, praying that it was true.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 1:23:52 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^ Half of my load was lightened, and now the other burden could take up the rest of my space. As long as nothing was going to truly hurt him, I was fine like that. Now, I could focus on Ray.^^ I truly tried to stay calm, but I knew that wasn't the case. Ray had traveled further. I guess I could humor Executioner for now, and hope that he would stay with me. I really hope he will. "Probably." I nodded my dial, trying to convince myself as well that was what it was. "Oh, and Executioner? It's not your fault." All I could say. I didn't want him to feel like it was his fault. It wasn't. I was changing, and Ray was mad. That was the problem.[/center]
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PLAGUE ;;
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 1:55:14 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
with my secrets safe and zeelias directed smoothly on the disappearance of her sister, i could relax just a fraction. no matter what she said.....it was my fault. this wouldn't have happened if i hadn't interfered in their lives. "it is though, and i'm sorry." i sighed, rolling up so i was no longer on my side, but laying simply with folded daggers. "do you want to go search for her?" i asked, the question genuinely worried.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 19:44:40 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^My eyes took in Executioner's visage, and I felt something warming my veins inside me. He looked genuinely worried. He truly cared. It made me happy, having someone who actually cared Somehow, deep in my dial, I had knew that this day was coming, I was just denying it. My sister was growing up, and she was tired of my commands and me hauling her around. I was just putting it off. That's what it all came down too. Executioner was just there when it happened, so to him, it seemed like his fault. But it wasn't. It was just a matter of time. "It's not, and stop saying it is. This day was coming, you just go wrapped up in the process that's all." I took a deep breath, anger subsiding. My voice had been rising, but only because I was anger he thought like that. "Okay, let's go look for her. Just do not think like that. Sure, I sounded bossy and ignorant, but I just left it. He would have to deal with it. I was stressed, and didn't want him to leave. And, I was about to make him realize that he couldn't. "Please don't leave me. Right now, you're the only horse that really matters to me, that's close enough for me to care for."[/size][/center]
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PLAGUE ;;
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i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 20:10:36 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
i breathed a shuddering sigh, hauling my heavily scarred skeleton up and shaking off the blades that stuck to my damp cloak. zeelias was so sure that her sister had stormed off because of her, and i wanted to lighten her burden in any way possible, make it simpler, easier to understand. but i couldn't help when she squarely placed the blame upon herself, and it started a throbbing ache deep inside my mask to think that i couldn't make things okay again.
"i wouldn't dream of leaving right now, zeelias." i whickered, nostrils fluttering as i breathed a sigh of relief to hear that these sweet sweet emotions were more than just a one way street.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 20:42:51 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^My burden was lightened even more when he had spoken to me that way, and said those words. I'm glad he wouldn't leave for now, but it hurt to think he would soon. Later, after I found my sister, probably. It added a burden that would have to be lightened soon, and I knew that I should keep the weight light and forget about it for awhile. Just until everything else happened, and the puzzle pieces fit together. Then, everything would push on from there. But, what if Ray didn't want to be found? What if she just kept running? My cranium was reeling. For now, we would just get moving. "That really means alot, Executioner. I really mean it. Let's get moving though." My vocals were silky soft, and I leaned forward and nuzzled my nose into his boa for a moment, inhaling his scent, before I danced back and strode across the dewy terrain, my pistons solid under my tiny bodice. The heated rays of the daylight burnt my back, and I pushed on, hoping that Executioner would follow.[/center][/font][/size]
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 20:50:48 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
what i had really meant by 'i wouldn't dream of leaving you right now' was more along the lines of i wouldn't dream of leaving you ever.', but it just seemed too....clingy to murmur out loud.
"as you wish." i smiled, the action soft and worried as we set out to look for her sister. i strode along beside her, shortening my usually long stride as to make it easier for her to keep up as we cut through the orchards.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 23:40:31 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^ My strides lengthened, hoping he hadn't shortened his too much to match mine. As I wish. I wish many things right now, and looking for my sister wasn't one of them. I just rolled my eyes and grinned up at him. "I feel so royal, you saying that. And then, my handsome body guard." I gasped. The lyrics had just slipped past my kissers without me realizing they had. I wanted to take them back, but I did mean it. Why did it feel so weird then? Was it too straight forward?[/center][/size][/font]
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 16, 2012 0:18:48 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
a smile tugged at my maw, lengthening my strides to match hers as we weaved around the ripe fruit trees. "a body guard? i'd hoped my fighting days were at an end, but anything for you." i breathed, voice light and airy, almost quiet. but she would figure out someday, if we were to stick together. she would find out that i was a vicious monster for six of my seven years, i was filled with hatred and abused, i was captivated and i murdered most of my family for sport. everyone important found out, it seemed.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 16, 2012 1:43:16 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^ My vocals caught in my throat. I was about to ask about which fighting days, but then, he said the last four words. But anything for you... From anyone else, those lyrics would count for nothing, but right now, they counted for everything. They danced away in my cranium, driving me insane, but a good insane. I finally found my voice again. "You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but which fighting days?" I was quiet, silent and waiting for an answer as I kept up the pace, my pearl orbs searching around every corner for my sister.
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 16, 2012 2:12:44 GMT -5
.x. executioner .x. i want a book that'll make me drunk.
"well.... a year ago i was a domesticated animal, used for stud fights in spain." voice faltering slightly as i spoke, i gathered the courage to explain to her my past and carried on. "i've been a fighting stallion since i was one and six months. i've been a murderer for four and a half years. they used to make me fight my family, that was always the worst part, and as you might know, its kill or be killed. i killed."
nerves wracking my body, i managed a weak smile for zeelias and turned my thick, scarred jug to face her. "they made me kill my own sons, my dam, my sire. most likely alot of my siblings...." i trailed, wincing at the memories of the screams and the shaking lasts breaths. those were always the worst.
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 16, 2012 2:34:59 GMT -5
^ZEELIAS^ Don't think I can't feel there's something wrong You've been the sweetest part of my life so long I look in your eyes, there's a distant light And you and I know there'll be a storm tonight [/font] ^^ I listened closely to his story, my orbs closing half way through, the way he described everything so clear. It was like I was there, right beside him. I was shocked, and wished I had been there to help him. "I am so sorry it had to happen to you." I whispered, and I nuzzled his shoulder. "I wish I could have been there, to help you." I told him, and continued, "It really hurts to think they had done that to you. I was in shock that people would do that. If he had expected me to be mad for killing, I was glad that he hadn't been killed. I wouldn't be blessed with his presence today had he had been killed.
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 16, 2012 2:44:19 GMT -5
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taught hide relaxed at the slightest touch of her velveteen, and i responded by turning my angular mug in and resting it lightly against her nape for a few seconds. "i am just glad that is is over, that i am blessed enough to be here with you." i murmured, blinking past the calm that i was suddenly feeling.
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