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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 14, 2012 23:51:16 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
 /\ I hate her. I hate my sister, I hate everything about that... That bitch! She's always so quiet and peaceful, making me do all the talking. I hate it! And then, while I'm asleep peacefully under a tree, I wake up and she's talking to some brute as if it's the easiest thing on earth! Sure, he's handsome. Sure, she was probably liking him more than a usually stallion, but still! She could have socialized before! Then, she embarrasses me by telling him my name! Take a deep breath, I thought, as I pumped my pistons faster, moving faster than I ever had before. My breath came out in gasps as I kept moving, my locks and tassel dancing out behind me, whipping in the cold air as I fly faster and faster, my anger slowly burning. It was my energy, the only thing that kept me going. /\ Anger burned like venom through my veins as I raced and weaved through trees and over logs, not tripping once. Take that, bitch! I thought to my sister, overjoyed to prove her wrong. I didn't trip over everything. My mind was reeling, and as I thought, I felt the wind whipping my face, the oxygen being sucked out of my lungs as I fought for more. I slowed my pace, my energy burnt and unable to catch my breath anymore. My muscles were finely tuned, and my cloak was soaked with sweat. My bodice was tense and shaking with rage and hatred. I just needed someone to talk to. |
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Colt
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 14, 2012 23:59:33 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] you say its all a crisis.
you say its all a blurr. !!nothing was calm.
i could feel it, the anger, the rage, the rejection, just itching beneath my skin. as if i scratched a little harder it would all come out and i would be free, but i've already tried that. panic, the panic whispers in the back of my mind constantly, pressuring me into awkward situations, moments in life that i would sooner forget than relive. fear, always fear. tugging me away from society and into the depths of the blackest throws. jealousy, jealous of those normal horses, the ones who have everything and yet wish for more. i had it all, and then i pissed it away and it never came back. now i'm just looking for an excuse to let loose my rage and take a chunk out of the world.
you could feel the pounding of her flint against the soft grounds, hatred stemming from the vibrations in the earth and slithering up my pistons like old friends.
misery loves company.
drawing closer to the worn and torn, battered and bruised femme fatale, i could hear her angst whispering in my harks like the privatest of songs, her sorrow and her cruel realizations.
she is not needed in this world.
!![/color] you'll find us now and we'll be
WASTED WASTED.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 0:32:09 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ I breathed, in and out. My gullet was raw and hoarse from running. Anger poisoned my veins, and I could see a red tint that outlined my vision. Although my sister had always been good to me, I hated her right now at this moment. I hated the way she always acted around strangers, and then Executioner comes, and screws up life. God fucking damn it. I hated him. I never realized it, but I hated a lot. Starting with my sister.
/\ Steady hoof beats rung in my acoustics, as they grew closer and closer. They were those of a stud, and they sounded like they were coming to me. I half expected my sister to hiss in my ear; Hide!, but instead, nothing. I smiled painfully, one that was filled with rage and the feeling of not belonging. I could do what I wanted. I wasn't going back. Instead, I straightened up and danced forward lightly on my hooves, my facade plain. Her azure pools met his before I even realized it, and I froze. Something told me to run, to get away and back to safety. But I stayed. I stood for a moment, and spoke.
"Hello. I'm Ruaiin, but you can call me Ray." My introduction was smooth, and gentle, but my voice betrayed me, and you could hear a slight bit of anger hidden behind it all. |
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 0:45:21 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] you say its all a crisis.
you say its all a blurr.!!she wanted to do something reckless.
you could see it, feel it, taste it on your tongue. she was trying to be one of those good girls gone bad....but it wasn't exactly working. her instincts were telling her to run, i could tell by the slight hesitation and the fear that so quickly shot through her mask, but she stayed put. well, at least she gets props for bravery.
"hello ruaiin." i smirked, closing the gap between us to five feet apart, my purple-molted hide shuddering in the suddenly strong rays that burst forth from the sun. "its nice today, isn't it?" i asked, easily dodging the 'and who are you?' question for at least thirty more seconds. poor girl, she didn't know what she had just dragged herself in to.
!![/color] you'll find us now and we'll be
WASTED WASTED.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 1:07:25 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ Hatred poured off of my body, anger poisoning my brain and bodice. Hatred for my sister, anger at Executioner for ruining my life. I hated both of them. My body shook with rage. I couldn't understand what was going on with my cranium, until right now. I was angry. I hated everyone. Red clouded my vision for a moment, but faded after I closed my optics. Why did this have to happen? I opened my azure orbs and looked at the stallion.
/\ He spoke my name, but he said it weird. It scared me for a moment, but I pushed past it. He closed the gap between us and I watched him every step of the way. That's the way it worked for me. I would simply watch. Finally, he spoke again. The day? Of course it sucked for me, but it was pretty beautiful when I looked around. I nodded.
"The day is rather gorgeous. It's just not the best. My lyrics were confusing, a puzzle. A riddle he would need to figure out. It was my turn.
"What's your name?" Vocals were soaked with curiosity. |
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Colt
i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 2:01:38 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] you say its all a crisis.
you say its all a blurr.!!i was having way to much fun already.
its like a horrible nightmare, playing itself over and over, the same situation, just with different horses. "breathe caroline, but i find that breather is easier in a pinch." i smiled, feeling the waves of rage that boiled off her person. she was so pissed that she hated even herself right now, especially herself. "what got you so fired up? you look like you're ready to explode." i questioned, actually, seriously interested in her response.
!![/color] you'll find us now and we'll be
WASTED WASTED.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 19:09:47 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ My orbs glared at him in slits, the way his lyrics weaved drove me insane. My inner radar was beeping at 100 miles an hour, telling me to leave, but instead I danced towards him, closing out distance. I flicked his facade with my whip, and pranced around him gently. My hatred burned, but I replaced it with some other sort of feeling. An unknown feeling. A grin was set upon my kissers, and I set my flirt on full throttle.
"Oh, why would such a handsome stud care for such an angered, heartless vixen. Breather, such a perfect name." I was trying out my new feelings, my new personality. It was interesting for me, but I enjoyed it. |
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Colt
i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 20:18:21 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] put me out of my, put me out of my.
fuckingmisery.!!you could just tell, she did not like who she was. this ruaiin was trying out her slut side, she was tempting fate and relishing in the adrenaline of it all.
we'd rather feel pain than emptiness.
"heartless? you seem as sweet as a symphony, ray." i whickered, watching the way she stepped closer so daintily, then slipped into her new role and became who she felt she needed to be. "i must say, its better than being called caroline." i chuckled, the noise a loud rumbled from deep inside my concave chest.
!![/color] put me out of my misery,
put me out of my fucking misery![/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 15, 2012 21:01:50 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ I might have seemed like a slutty bitch right now, but honestly, I was trying everything out. I liked the freedom I had though. It made me happy. My sister was not here to tell me what to do any more. That's the way it worked. My anger was burning out, and becoming replaced with exhaustion. I was fucked off still, and hated life at the time, but I would figure it out.
/\ Sweet as symphony, huh? The first horse to complement me in awhile. My sister stopped complimenting me after the fire, something in her permanently scarred. I really could care less about what happened. She was just retarded. A bitch. Heartless. My outlook on everything was negative, and I hated everything. I shook my dome, my dreads repositioning themselves properly.
/\ I stopped in front of him, and danced back again. A grin split on my kissers, and I watched. Caroline would be nice too, but simply for a girl. I realized why he was called Breathe. Caroline would be embarrassing.
"Obviously. It would be slightly awkward for you. So, Breathe, what brings you out here?" [/size][/font] |
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Colt
i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 15, 2012 21:39:19 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] i'm bound to wonder where,
all of your glitters going.!!"i'm hiding out." i laughed, the sound deep and well worn, comfortable. "what about you, ray? what brings you all the way out here?"
i twisted to face her as she walked another circle around me, coming close then backing up to a respectable distance. she was a nice dove, but a nice dove with some dark, angry secrets locked away in the corners of her mazing mind. she reminded me of my sister, a sweet sorrel with some issues that could not be fixed. not yet broken inside, no, but you could tell that they were both cracked.
!![/color] but i'm so far from knowing,
and none of my instincts are showing.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 16, 2012 0:15:50 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ Hiding out? For what, I wondered. Maybe from someone in particular, or maybe from society itself. I wouldn't be shocked had that have been the case. But of course, he was unlucky enough to find good ol' me, plain and a good girl gone angry. That's the way I saw it. I was angry, hated life in general. That's the way it worked with me. I hated everything. And myself. All I ever did was make a mess of things. My sister was perfect, and everyone loved her. Why was I here, he asked?
"Because. My sister made me mad, so I left." I gave the least amount of detail that I could, and just at the thought of it, my blood began to boil. A deep breath filling my lungs, and I calmed down. [/size][/font] |
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Colt
i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 16, 2012 0:25:31 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] i'm bound to wonder where,
all of your glitters going.!!i could tell that she was curious. what exactly was i hiding from? everything? why? no reason in particular, just because. i chuckled when she gave her answer;; sibling rivalry, family hatred. oh, joy of all joys, that is a topic that i am very familiar with. "i have a sister much like you. she calls herself lunacy now, and we haven't seen each other for over five years, but i still think about her loads. so don't think i don't understand why you ran." a grin split my velvets, understanding the anger that had been chewing away at her soul for so long.
!![/color] but i'm so far from knowing,
and none of my instincts are showing.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by SuFFeR on Feb 16, 2012 2:43:07 GMT -5
/RUAIIN\
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
/\ I was glad he understood, even the least bit.
"It is horrible. I hate her. I hate my whole family." My voice was soaked with venom and hatred, as I stretched up, trying to seem taller than I actually was. I was short and often made fun of, too. It bothered me loads, and my sister didn't do a thing about it, either. I hated her!! |
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Colt
i think i lost myself ; under your control
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Post by PLAGUE ;; on Feb 16, 2012 19:44:47 GMT -5
;; breathe caroline ;;
[/color] i'm bound to wonder where,
all of your glitters going.!!"family is a worthless waste of time who are never there when you need them." i agreed, happy to find someone else with the ame outlook on kin as me. most other horses are 'pro-family' and all into that mushy-gushy love stuff. gross.
!![/color] but i'm so far from knowing,
and none of my instincts are showing.[/center][/color][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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